FOUR

& it`s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to
stay the same. It`s funny but stupid how you want everything &
nothing at the same time. It`s crazy when you want to let go, but
you keep holding on , & when you want to move on but you`re stuck
right where you started. When feelings come & go & you can`t
decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but
you don`t know where to start. When you want them in your life so
bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away. It`s
so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now &

realize that things are different & they may never be the same.

You tell yourself it`s not worth it, but if it really didn`t matter,

you wouldn`t spend so much time thinking about it.