If I Could Change The World...

I have always struggled with what my purpose in life is, and while I haven't found it exactly yet, (and probably won't in this lifetime) I feel like I have realized a few things about life. I believe that our time here on earth is not to be wasted, that it is a "test" of our soul. I believe we are given a road of many paths to walk on, and the test is to see which paths we choose. Will we go down a path of temptation, hate, and sinning, or down the right, true path...? I am not perfect, and I admit that I have chosen the wrong path many, many times. But eventually I found my way to where I am now. Which I believe is a much better place.I have chosen to use my struggles as a way to help others. I believe that I have been given a chance to redeem myself. I know I can help others, and I know I can change lives. The actual secret I was getting to here, is that I hope I can change the world somehow, someway. Whether it's through one person, and then they change one persons life, and they change another's life, and so on... Or if I help a huge group of people, I know this is what will make my life worthwhile. :)

P.S. These are just my beliefs, and I know many of you believe something different. I am open to everyone's thoughts. Whether you are Christian, Jewish, Muslim, or non-religious, I respect your opinion, and would never ask you to change it.

I love cloudy days.

When I look at a cloudy day, I do not see the gloom. The blue sky is always up there somewhere, the clouds are just shielding it from the eyes of those who are not willing to see it. So it is with life. We must always look on the bright side, so when the cloudy days come, we will always be able to remember that blue skies are always within our reach.

Silence...

I like being alone.

There have been many days where I didn't speak one word all day.

I do like having people around me, but I like my "me" time.

It's my body...

I want a tattoo, but I'm afraid I will regret it in 10 years.

I'm also afraid that I will pass out when I'm getting it done. :)

I'm a dreamer.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park,

I asked God who I'm supposed to be.

The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie.

I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream That I could fly from the highest tree.

I had a dream.

Profound Silence

I have secrets, I have scars

As deep as anybody

I have fears that no one hears

But don't tell anybody

Sometimes I lie

But doesn't everybody

Sometimes

Doesn't everybody.

Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important...

Really am very happy! While I may find unhappiness in the world sometimes, I know I am quite blessed with the life I have. I thank God every day for my family, my health, and all those around me.

Whenever I am taking photos,

and failing at capturing what I envisioned in my head.

And I get frustrated and annoyed...

This is what happens.

I make a silly face, and laugh at myself. =)

I often find it difficult to express how I'm feeling.

It's weird to be saying this, but the title of this post is often very true with me. I will be feeling so much, but I'll have no idea how to put it into words. Sometimes I'll just cry for no reason; or laugh for no reason. That's just how I am, I guess. Isn't that how it is with most of us, though? We want to say what we're feeling, we just don't know how. Someday I'll find a way to change that.

La Quinta Estacion- Que Te Queria

Extrañar

Como extraño aquellos instantes donde todo era mejor,

donde todo era ilusión, hasta tal vez ceguedad.

No se lo que era, pero era "feliz", sentía que con jugar era suficiente, en cambio ahora, creo ser la muñeca con la que todos juegan, con la que se divierten los "perfectos", los aceptados.
Yo también quiero divertirme con este juego, no ser objeto de diversión.

Estoy sufriendo al anhelar volver a los viejos tiempos, no paro de extrañar todo lo que fue de mí.

No quiero crecer, sólo quiero internarme en el pasado y dejar de querer lo que fue y no volverá.

Memories

Even though you’ve moved on, and so have I,

I lied.You’ll always be here, in the back

of my mind, and in my heart, but most of all,

in all of my sweetest memories.

Nine

I deserve the right kind of love.

The kind of love that makes me happy.

The fantastic love that's in books & movies.

Even if we aren't together forever, I want to

look back & never regret having fallen in love with you.

That's the kind of love I think we all deserve.

Eight

She doesn't know who she is anymore.

She only can think about *him* these days.
He doesn't have a clue what he's doing,
But its hurting her horribly, and it won't go away.

Letter to My Someone

P.S.-

Do you know that i love you?

i probably already told you, but

i'm going to keep saying it.

there is no lies in these worlds,

not one bit. your smile keeps me

alive. Is one more reason to keep

fighting. I would give you my soul

for comfort, even if it leaves me

dark and cold. && when i hold

you close, i can feel your heart

beat fast, and i think to myself...

i've found that " someone " at last.

If I were a BOY

If I were a boy

I'd think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her

Cuz I know how it hurts

When u lose the one you wanted

Cuz his taken you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back

Say it's just a mistake think I would forgive you like that

If you thought I would wait for you, you thought wrong

But you're just a boy

You don't understand

How it feels to love a girl

Someday you wish you're were a better man

You don't listen to her

You don't care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

Cuz you taken you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed! But you just a boy.

(BEYONCE)

RANDOM FACTS

...i love attention..all the time!!
...My favorite eyeliner is Maybelline!
...I love reality TV (its real weird)
...My favorite color is Black and White (they aint colors i know they are shades but whatever!)
...i would sleep all day and all night if i could! ...i write with my right hand...i don't wear makeup when im at home.
...I Get bored really easy.
...I hate people who boss me around i cant stand it!
...I hate when a guy stares at your chest when he talks to you (its obvious!)
...I love to cuddle with someone when its cold.
...When i get woken up during the night i get really grumpy the next day and take it out on everyone!.
...When my alarm wakes me up in the morning for work i groan and try and fit in 5 minutes more of sleep!
...i don't like liars,unreliable people and backstabber's
...I hate really muscular guys.
...I love when a guy brags about me and shows me off to all his friends!
...I love when a guy walks beside me and grabs my hand.
...I love when a guy holds me while watching a movie.
...I love making out..FULL STOP!
...I cant stand when white boys try to be black...they dont pull it off!
...I get really annoying at times.
...I have an Apple Iphone.
...I don't want a boyfriend to be shorter then me!
...I can spend over a high amount of money in one go.
...I always regret one-night stands...no matter who it was with.
...I hate cheap people.
...Im scared of Marriage, what if hes not the right one?
...I hate guys who cheat!!
...If a guy cheats on me, and i find out from a friend ill confront him..and then dump him if he dont fess up!
...Im a real sweetie, unless you get on my nerves!
...I cant have a normal conversation without saying "ñame" in every sentence, or saying "que se yo" after every word!
...im addicted to day dreaming
...Im loyal as fuck if i love you i'll love you forever and if your bringing me down ill drop you in 2 seconds and love you from a distance
...I cant stand when someone tries to push me to be someone that im not.
...I hate when people judge before they know.
...Im not spoilt...Maybe a little :)
...I Love receiving gifts :)
...My cell phone stays with me at all times!!
...You will NOT touch my Ipod Or Phone unless your special.
...My Favorite music channel is MTV & MTV3.
...My favorite show is: Heroes

LOVE IS IN THE AIR

Love is in the air
and i think im getting high.

They say that the bond of love is knitted in the sky
by the angels and then sent to the earth for the people…
I say that it is made right here on the surface when your
hand kisses mine, when your soul touches mine and absorbs it
somewhere in the depth of your tenderness.
It’s your love that is in the air… it has softened the sky to lose its glare….

MISSING

Sometimes, even when you're

having the time of your life,

you can't help but to stop && think

about how how much you miss

t.h.e. g.o.o.d. o.l.d. d.a.y.s.

WONDERING

Whenever a memory pops into your head, you always have to wonder.

How many more times will I be able to remember that? Will I ever remember that again? How many times can you revist a memory?

SEVEN

When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults.

You don't look for answers. You don't look for mistakes.

Instead, you fight the mistakes. You accept the faults and

you overlook excuses. The measure of love is when you

love without measure. There are rare chances that you'll

meet the person you love and who loves you in return.

So once you have it, don't let it go. The chance may never

come your way again.